It's almost four in the morning. I have to be up and ready to go in less than five hours. What in the heck am I doing, starting a new blog?!? I'm stumbling by faith. Literally and figuratively.
What is stumbling by faith? It's kind of like walking by faith, just not so gracefully or confidently. I'm still learning. Still figuring it all out. I finally went and got myself an "adult" bible (read: not paperback and full of teenage-level guide notes). I'm 37 years old and JUST got the bible that I'm going to be carrying on my journey for the next few decades (considering how much the thing cost, I HOPE it lasts that long...lol). And so, I'm stumbling along. Still figuring out how to study (the SOAP method is like pulling teeth to me), what to study (I just landed on Psalm 19 and I blame the first four verses for this blog), and how to get more than just milk out of what I'm reading. I'm struggling with not comparing myself to others and not getting frustrated. My faith in God is childlike. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that He can do anything, that He loves me, and that He is always there for me...but scripturally, I'm weak.
I don't do Bible Art Journaling...it would be too easy to get caught up in the art and forget the worship. And even easier still to start comparing my art with others instead of having it be for Him. I've already got a few notebooks going, and I need another one floating around like I need another hole in my head. So...here I am. This is where all the mess will happen. I'm hoping you'll come along for the ride. What that means is that I'm hoping some of you will have a deeper insight into what I'm reading/studying/living/praying that will help me keep my feet on the right path. I'm hoping you'll pray for me and with me. I'm hoping that maybe some of what I write hits you right in the spiritual feels and lets you know you're not the only one. I'm hoping you'll let me pray for you and with you.
It's an awful, beautiful, messy life. Who's with me?
